What's your activity when you're boring; when you're alone and even when you're home sick? As for me, watch drama, Fb/Ig/Snapchat or maybe like now... Sign in to the one which I've been neglect for 2 years and start over again.
I've made a decision which I myself feel... "Woah". I... think it once, twice, third times or maybe 7648949000 times? Seek for advice from my friends, family... And they're all supported me to make the changes...
And start from Dec 2015, I busy with lots of farewell... From farewell lunch to farewell dinner, even a farewell party.
Time flies, time tick tok-ing without any alert, without any notice, after 2 months goyang kaki time, the only thing remind me that I should go back to the reality was when I need to pick up Lao Wong at airport. He reminds me that I'm going to leave a place which I already stayed for 26 years, leave my parents and sistas, my friends... my everything. Oh ya, gotta to be a little bit fair to him, I make some changes towards my relationship too, from long distance relationship become normal couple mode. *Now i see him everyday*
So... Let's say goodbye to my family especially my parents and sistas. Tell myself thousand million times, don't cry, no tears drop... Ended up, goodbye to them with my red eyes, hugged with tears and boarding with sound... I mean, I cried like nobody beside me. I know... I know... the distance between Sg and Pg just 1 hour flight time, and I'm idiot still cry like there is no tomorrow. Trust me, you won't feel good when you're about to leaving a place, people, everything you own for 26 years. This kind of feeling SU*K!!!!
Now, I've been here, the new place, new country, different culture, different lifestyle. I found myself quite difficult to adapt to the new environment, I'm not an easy person. Cry for more than 5 times in past 10 days... I know how bad am I, every time I start to emo, I start to cry, Lao Wong will feel so helpless... I don't want it happen, yet... everything beyond my control. Imagine... different family, different culture, different lifestyle. I know I need time to adapt everything, and so do Lao Wong and his family too. A new people just walk in their life...
I should take this changes as a good change too. At least now I chat with my mami thru whatsapp for almost everyday, and I finally know how lucky am I when I was home with them everyday by my side.
Like what someone told me and I take it as my new motto "鸟儿终有一天必须自由飞翔，不是很远，想家；可以随时回的"
